Looking Back at Life
All these small nuances and values I have been picking up since I was a little boy, from my grandmother as well as my parents. It remains one of my most treasured beliefs that they have made me who I am. Some days I stand on this land…land that has been for generations in my family and kind of look down a long driveway of memories and recollections come tumbling out, perhaps I should chronicle the innocuous happenings that have stood like beacons in my matrix of memories.
My Grandmother was one such beacon, an indomitable little woman; she lost her husband, my grandfather quite suddenly of heart attack, I was quite little at that time to make any kind of difference.
She was the matriarch of the clan…6 sons, 2 daughters and numerous nephews and nieces, but she never once, as far as I can remember, was dependant on anyone in managing the farm.
Family for her, she always told us, would always be there whenever she needed them. She would always say that if you cannot count the on the family in life, then there is little else you can count on.
The family never let her down…uncles, aunts, cousins, all came together and she was the pivot. Thus get-togethers became a family a jamboree.
School holidays were always at the farm…. Waking up at the break of dawn with the smells from the kitchen wafting up to my room …. The smell of the freshly cooking flour in ‘desi ghee’ and sugar was enough to drive anyone out of their deep sleep.
Stuffing my pyjamas into my boots I would race down the stairs into the kitchen to find my grandmother stirring the ‘kada prashad’ for the daily ‘deg’ I just have to close my eyes and smells surround me again.
My grandmother taught me many valuable lessons in those summers about life, including humanity, laughter, strength, and most importantly the importance of family. Looking back at the all too short span of a time I got to spend with my grandmother, she taught me some of the most precious morals that I carry with me still today. One of the toughest lessons that I had to deal with was the death of some of my most loved animal friends.
I thank God, for letting me spend as much time with my grandmother as he did. A lot of who I am and what I stand for started here on this farm on the outskirts of this village.
Today I am able to dwell on many pleasant and unpleasant events with more comfort and confidence. I accepted each event as part of life, regardless of whether it was a good or bad experience. I understand that moments in life transpire even when we are not prepared for it, but more importantly, it is how we deal with circumstances that keep us going forward.
My life has been a journey filled with challenging experience, which includes, leaving home…..and take a cue on the startup line with other young men, cadets to be exact 'Gentleman Cadets' , some of whom have become became friends for life.